I am so thrilled to see you here.
For those who don’t know me, I’m Judy. I lost my husband very suddenly in 2014 after a horrendous 3 year battle with testicular cancer. I have 3 beautiful and inspiring children who are 15, 12 & 7 who I call Mummy’s 3 wee miracles. Our lives were turned upside down on the 14.11.14 in a matter of 7 hours, when my husband went from being dehydrated to dead just like that. With no family support it was me and my kids. How could we go on? Our lives as we knew it were done. Could we go on without him? He was our rock, our hero. Was life worth living? To me no, it wasn’t. I sunk into a deep dark depression. Diazepam and propranolol kept me going. I distanced myself from my 3 children and barely went out. Then the day before Thomas’ funeral my eldest son said to me, You are not the only one living with this you know. WE are too! Pull yourself together!
Dad would be so disappointed in you. You were the one who pulled him through every operation, every round of chemo and look at you. You are a mess. You are not the Mum we know and love. We want YOU back Mum. Please fight. Please don’t give up. McKillop’s DON’T quit. Those words from my son were the turnaround for me. From that moment I decided to turn our mess into our message. I’ve never looked back. I have turned my life around. Was it easy? Hell no! But was it worth it? Absofreakinlutely!!! Thanks to my 3 miracles having their belief in me and me believing in them we are stronger than ever. I now help so many people living in the depths of grief turn their lives around. I help them live again, not just exist. I hold healing groups in my home twice a week where I talk and carve out an action plan with these beautiful heartbroken souls and show them and guide them through their grief. I help them regain control of their lives. To live them, not just exist. I am also a Reiki practitioner and crystal therapist. I also teach Mindfulness through grief. I use my experience of living with grief daily along with my Reiki, Mindfulness and crystals to enhance the lives of those who don’t think they can go on, but they can. They can borrow my belief in them until they believe it themselves. No matter who we are, we all share a common event with everyone else on the planet. At some point we will experience the loss of someone close to us. I know that the death of a loved one affects everyone differently, it’s important to take the time to process the emotions we feel, rather than pushing them deep down inside only to have them resurface later. I know what it’s like to have nobody to help and care. I know what’s it’s like to be a rock bottom and see no way out. But first you have to want to heal. You really have to want it and believe in yourself. Remember that you can borrow my belief in you until you find it yourself.
With love and blessings Judy and my 3 miracles